Love & Relationships >> Breaking Up >> SOMETHING about ur ex that either made u really mad or sumthing they did that was wrong but u went along wit it?? OR JUST TELL ABOUT UR EX AND GET IT ALL OUTTA UR SYSTEM!
SOMETHING about ur ex that either made u really mad or sumthing they did that was wrong but u went along wit it?? OR JUST TELL ABOUT UR EX AND GET IT ALL OUTTA UR SYSTEM!
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Posted 5 months ago K so this is gonna be where u tell things about ur ex that made u really mad, that u knew was wrong, or just talk about them and let it out of your system ya feel me?!?!!!! k so then he apologizes and stuff and i was like watever i'll forgive you eventually but rite now u just need to leave me alone! so a few weeks passed and he asked me out again i said okay fine everybody deserves 2nd chances rite so we hung out 4 a lil while at my friends house and stuff it was fun we were just dancin and watchin videos and play fighting we had fun and then he had to go so we said good bye and stuff. we were happy for about 2 weeks and then he broke up wit me b/c he said i was prude or watever. I'm like okay i don't care wateve but he actually never told me he wanted to break up he told his bff and his bff called me and told me i was just like okay watever i should of known it would happen again. k so a few days later i hear he has another girlfriend i'm like okay good 4 u or watever but i still liked him 4 sum reason now i don't even remember y i had liked him sooo much but i did! he went out wit her for about a 3weeks and then i went back over my friends house to chill wit her cuz we had a field trip the next day and we couldn't ride the buses so her mom was gonna take us to skool. that same night he calls her and and ask me out again and she's like is this a dare or anything and he was like no i promise and she was like wat about ur g/f he was like i'l lbreak up wit her 2morro at skool. so she said yes 4 me and i felt bad cuz i knew whe was gonna break up wit her and i knew it was b/c o f me and she had really liked him too b/c she even changed her appearance for him and i knew it was wrong but i just went along wit it and i'm srry now b/c he's just a jerk and i've finally realized that! but b4 I realized that i still kinda had feelings 4 him but he turned around and asked out my BEST BEST FRIEND! wat kinda guy does' stuff like that like seriously? |
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| Posted 5 months ago okay if we are ranting about our exs i have stuff i need to say...my first seriously boyfirend broke up with me after he flunked out of school cuz he felt like a failure then he was telling me how much he loves me and wants to get back but he is just really messed up right now..then i find out he is sleeping with other girls...and he is still calling..this doesn't stop till over a year later when i get a new boyfriend who was abusive and a liar...then i take forever to date a guy again cuz i can't trust and he turns out be crazier then the last one....he said he was gonna kill me like it was so casual..he even sat outside my house just watching the house...very creepy...then my last boyfriend who i just left , we lived together and talked about getting married and i find out he is possibly cheating and was sending emails to hook up with girls 3 days before i moved in to our apartment...oh did i mention also a cheater, liar, abusive and overall just a mean heartless person.....what is up with men??!! AARRRGHGHHH!!! i swear i'm starting to hate them..the only nice, sweet, caring ones are always the ones that are taken...i'm loosing hope...for real |
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| Posted 5 months ago okay loo k yea we are ranting but everybody does so it's alrite.... and no don't give up i mean i felt like i wanted to give up to but i know there r some good guys out there and if we wait a while we'll find them or they'll find us but maybe it's just cuz ur attracted to a certain type of guy i would say get to kno other guys too different then the ones you would usually go for b/ cif u keep going out wit the same types of guys then ur gonna have the same types of problems although each time it might be a crazier guy so just change the wat u looka at guys |
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| Posted 5 months ago okay, my first boyfriend was in jr high and we met at the first dance. well, we slow danced and b4 the end of it we were goin out. well, he told me he was gunna break up w/ his girlfriend and he did that sunday. well, we went out for almost a month and i found he was cheating on me with his ex! I was so mad i couldn't even break up with him in person i was afraid i might punch him and then I would get in trouble. My second real bf, i met at church and i broke up with him when i found someone else, well i broke up with that guy after not to long and went back out with the guy from church. well, then he started being a jerk. when i broke up with him, he said that i would have to beg him to go out with me again. i wasn't plannin on it anyway, but the next time i went to church he was tryin to get me to go back out with me. i told him and no and asked him what about the fact that i was goin to have to beg him, and he said that he was just goofin off. well, i still wouldnt go iout with him and he eventually moved away. one of my realitives lives where he does and apparently he got so desperate that he is now a bi-sexual. I now havent had a boyfriend in like over a year. I think i've had the worst luck with guys ever! is there something wrong with me! (L)HashBrown(L) |
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| Posted 5 months ago Okay no there's nothing wrong with you.... and no u haven't had the worst luck with guys ..evrybody has a few bad crushes and exs just different experinces wit them... and i kno how it is when ur going out wit sumbody who already has a g/f and they say they're gonna break u p wit them well sum guys actually do but then others don't and u shouldn't go out wit them if they already have a /f cz ya never kno wat will happen or wwat's going on in his head and i personally think that it's not u but the guys u like i mean everybody thinks it's them when it's the type of ppl u like u just gotta broaden ur search and talk to guys u normally wouldn't ya never kno how it mite turn out |
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| Posted 5 months ago ok i got one. my ex did a lot to hurt me and make me angry. he stood me like 20 times, broke up with me 4 times, lied too me who knows how many times, ignored some calls i made before we broke it off for good, and he cheated on me. i dont know for sure if he cheated but it all adds up. and somehow i thought i was in love, i didn't want to let go of him even if he made me cry everyday and feel like shit. sadly my relationship with him was the longest relationship i had, like 5 months. there were ups of course. he was the first guy to tell me he loves me. its been 2years and wierd enough i miss him. i told him off about 6 months ago because he was still messing with my emotions and treating me the same. Shhh… quiet you might piss somebody off
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| Posted 5 months ago its not something my ex did besides break up with me but he did say that when i was in 9th that we would go out again but he lied but now i am in love with him again and i dont know how to tell him cause it seems like he hates me and he was the one who asked me if we would still be friends if we ever broke up and he broke that promise and he hurt me but i am still in love with him and he told me he loved me when we were going out and now that i saw him i want to tell him i love him but i can so what can i do |
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| Posted 5 months ago we'll i've had that problem wit my last ex and the only thing u can do is try i mean if u try to be friends wit him and he kinda ignores you then it's over and you just gotta let him go i mean u probabaly only think u love him anywayz u can't luv someone who brought u sooo much pain i mean u only think soo until u find sumbody better trust i haven't found my sumbody better yet but i'm sure i will eventually and u will too but in the mean time ignore the guy completely take his # out ur phone take him off everything as ur friend on watever u have (examples: facebook, blackplanet,myspace, tickle) everywhere and eventuall yu'll start to forget him and don't tell him ur in love with him cuz ur not u only think u r just wait until u find ur mr RIGHT. cuz u will |
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| Posted 5 months ago what if you memerized his number |
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| Posted 5 months ago well if u think about other things and other peoples nomubers it'll be easier cuz i memorized my exs number too but thank god it got disconnected and he got another one ... not that i called a lot i barely called.. but anywayz if u don't think about him then u won't think about his # |
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| Posted 5 months ago Well I have a story as well one of my boyfriends slept with my sister becaues I went out with one of my friends and did not sit around waiting for his call. Another boyfriend that I had loved to call me a F'n C and other things that were not so nice. He also loved to control he found out the hard way that I will not be controled by anyone. He is sooooooo history. He came crying back oh i am so sorry please forgive me. I told him that I was born with my own brian and did not need his help to think. |
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| Posted 5 months ago I'm not too vocal when it comes to my relationship. I've been turned down by girls whom I really like. anyways, I'm gonna say something about my ex-girlfriend. Breaking up isn't that easy as if you were untying a knot. To make it short, we've been together for 2 years, but it happened that we need to go on our separate ways. She's a daughter of the owner of a well-known company. And, I'm just a pain in the ass guy who spends my dad's money. I was planning to ask her to marry me, just before an unexpected thing happen. His dad wants her to marry someone she doesn't even know. Yes, I never thought of it even in my nightmare. We have to rush things up. We should get married, that's the last option. And the safest but we failed. We lived in together for a half year. We thought that would last a little longer but her dad finally introduce her to that guy. She was crying while talking to me. I felt tlike the most stupid ass for being unable to think of anything to do. The msot stupid thing that I suggest is a break up. Unreasonable and stupid. David the Great |
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| Posted 5 months ago it's amazing actuly...the shortest relationship that i'v had is like... 1 month...pretty good hu? any way...one of my ex's once dumped me between classes!! he gave me a hug and whispered in my ear "i'm breaking up with you" then he smiled and walked away...then i made my science exparament blow up i was so mad.....ARG!! But now i'm taken and happy!! |
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| Posted 4 months ago well my ex made me SO mad over loads of things but the one thing that really sticks in my mind and still sends me nuts sometimes (used to, im now over it, i think) is that he used to get angry when I worried about being pregnant. He knew next to nothing about birth control and used to think that I was worrying for no reason.....he didnt belive me when I said it was possible to get pregnant without actually having full sex....he said it was something they wrote in girls magazines to stop them having sex too young....what patronising rubbish.....any doctor will tell you that its true...but he knew nothing yet presided to appont himself udge over what I knew.......its like he was saying I wasnt intelligent enough to be able to distinguish fact from ficiton..when he himself was the idiot who knew nothing at all....and he was not careful about stuff like that, he used to get grouchy if I was careful....if id have carried on his way then I would proabably have got pregnant by now.......the most offensive thing was the implication that I was stupid....when in reality he was the backward hick who knew nothing. what a co*k!!!! |
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| Posted 4 months ago my ex made me sooooooo uncomtable we are only 13 yrs old but he was always talking about me and him having sex and i wasnt ready for that..... and one day when i went o his house because his sister and me are like bff's his sister went to the bath room and he sat there and all i did was just crack my nuckles and then guess what??? HE GOT A FREAKIN BONER!!!! i was sooo mad not that he could help it but it seemed that everything that i would do he would get a boner it got on my nerves so i broke up with him and he still gets boners but luckly i havent got to see him in like ever but i bet you anything that on myspace when he sees me pic he still get one and that is really really embarresing ya know?? but i had to be pretty lolx Never regret what you do cause youll never go anywhere. always thnx your haterz and the people that hurt you because they are the ones who made you stronger. stay with the people who were there for you and made you laugh.. those people are what made you who you are today..<33 |
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| Posted 4 months ago my ex isn't even technically my ex, and that's what bugs me. a year ago i was going out with another lad and my mate heard JC liked me. i hadn't told her about my boyfreind because she dones't like him and keeps trying to slap him so i figured it wasn't worth the hassle. anyway, she set me up with JC perfectly innocently so i was cheating on both lads but wasn't sure how to sort it out without offending anyone. in the end my boyfriend made it easy for me by kising a mutual mate while he dind't know i was there. i agreed not to make a big fuss about it because if no one knew i was with him then no one would know i cheated on anyone. it looked legit. so then i was just going out with JC and my ex was going out with this other girl. then one of JC's mates yelled in the stret in front of loads of people 'by the way, J say's you're dumped!' needless to say i wasn't happy and didn't speak to any of them for a while. i should probably mention that i hate all his mates. i have done since i met them five years ago, we just don't get on. when six months later i had anohter boyfriend i was walking home and bumped into JC i tried to avoid him but he kept trying to talk so i had a go at him for the relaly loe thing he did. it turns out he was still interested in me and his frined only did it because he was trying to get back at me for something i did to him. but i was not about to start cheating again so we stayed friends. that was when we hardly ever saw each other. we were in the same form but sat with different people. this year we moved into a different room and my best mate left school so i was on my own. he was sat on the desk in front of me but then he fell out with the guy he was sat next to and had to sit next to me, so we got closer again and because we walked home the same way we were always meeting on the way and talking. in december i relaised that i liked him again and we were both single so i asked him out and first he said maybe but then he said yes (in the space of a few minutes). great news is, he wasn't in school the next day and the day after that we broke up for christmas so didn't see each other for two weeks. when we got back we spoke like normal in school and talked about other stuff on the way home until his friends found out about it. they started messing with both of us and ended up fighting them in class (two guys against one girl? why?) so at lunch the next day he came over and said 'i don't think this is working' but his mates interrupted us and in form he was silent. when i eventually got him to talk he broke up with me and i said that i dind't expect it to work anyway because he really likes his mates and i can't stand them. he then said that he wasn't 'breaking up breaking up' he was usggesting that whole 'on a break thing' that no one understands. basically this was only a few months before we left school for good and we'd never have to see his mates again so we went back to being mates for a while then about a month or two ago i asked him if we were okay becuase i'd actually made up with most of his mates and not killed the one that was left over. he said we should still wait just in case because even though they don't mind me as a person, me as his girlfriend is anohter story. but then i asked him to kiss me and he did so i figured it would be okay... on the last day we spoke to me like a mate and at the leavers party i dind't see him. afterwards we all went off with our mates but one of my friends got drunk so i decided to take her home as i had not had as much as anyone else. JC was walking home with some other lads and he dind't speak to me. when my mate went home it was me, JC and the lads and he didn't speak much. when thy tuned down one road i had to go the other way but i asked JC to talk a second and gave him my number cos he said he lost it. i didn't see him again until exams when we were both too busy revising to say much. after one i asked if he was walking home but he said he was going with a mate. a few days later i asked him before the exams and he said yeah, but we ended up walking with one of my mates and her boyfriend. on the last exam i had got fed up of being messed about so i said 'look, call me later or tell me you don't want to talk to me, it's that simple' and he said his phone was broken, he'd go to my house the next day. the next day he didn't show and i got upset and decided not to bother but at prom i saw him again and he sat next to me for the meal, then moved before we even started which i guess might have been good because i'd decided not to talk to him again and asked my mate not to let me stare at him before he even sat down- i think it might have been hard to avoid looking at him if he was sat right next to me. when we started dancing i kept looking back at him and eventually managed to ask him to meet me outside, which he did. he said nothing about not showing and said that he didn't want to dance with me beucase his mates weren't feeling friendly and had already made one girl cry. he then told me he was free all the next week and that i should say the day and time for him to meet me. the day came (this monday!) and he didn't show so i texted a mutual mate and asked her if he was playing or just strange. she said he liked me as a mate but refused to say why he didn't tell me or ho long ago he decidd he didn't want to be with me. i presently burst into tears, got a drink and went for a walk. i haven't seen or heard from him or his mates since and i think if i do i might just deck any one of them. i get that me might have been trying not to hurt me, but the jerk could have done it way differently. |
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| Posted 4 months ago OMG first off Scherna and Princess4life, there are great guys out there, you have had just the misfortune of meeting jerks on the way of finding the right guy!! Don't be afraid to open up when you finally do meet a guy worthy of you!! And again , there is nothing wrong with you hash browns you haven't met the right guy!! Most of us ladies have to date a lot of jerks before we meet someone we truly care about!! Thats the beauty of dating!! As much as it sucks, heart break is essential to grow and learn from our mistakes, so we don't repeat the same mistakes!! And Nancy, out of curiousity, are you and your sister at all in good terms??? Thats a pretty shitty thing for her to do!! One bad break up for me was my first and only love!! I was 16 an we dated for 9 months!! I was in love with him, and gave my virginity to him!!! He loved me to and we thought we would be together forever!! Then out of nowhere he stopped phoning me, and when I phoned him he made excuses not to see me!! Like a fool in love I called and chased him, not letting him chase me!!! He broke up with me, and because I cried so hard he asked me back out the next day saying he didn't mean it, and I ate every bit of it up!! However we were on a "break" so we never saw each other but I thought he loved me so i trusted him!! On my birthday, he arrived 2 hours late because he was at the gym, and he didn't even acknowledge me the entire evening!! but he gave me a beautiful locket!! He was confusing me!! Again we never spoke for weeks, and I found out from my cousin that he took out a gril who worked at the gym, and he wanted to break up with me but didn't have the courage !! I was devastated!! So I finally confronted him, and he sheepishly told me he was confused and didn't want to go out anymore!! I seriously cried for weeks!! I even missed school!!! 9 months later we ran into each other and he asked me back out stating he still loved me and missed me!! Being a dope I went back out with him, but with a better head on my shoulders !! He went back to not phoning me and not taking me to parties because guys teased him about me being underage ( he is 3 years older) which is no excuse!! I am the one who dunped him, knowing this time that I deserved better treatment even though i still very much loved him!! 6 months later he started calling me when he was school!! He told me he loved , he even cried, and told me he was stupid and that he always loved me he was just scared of commitment then , but he isn't now!! After talking for weeks I agreed to give him one more chance!! Everyone does deserve chances if the are sincere, and he really was!! He actually missed out on a european back packing trip with the guys just to be my grad escort!!! We are currently still dating , 2 years now!!! And we are more in love then ever!! He did a complete 360 change!! It's funny how the guy that played me is actually the guy of my dreams!! I always say if it's meant to be it's meant to be!! And it really was :)!! So follow your heart, and don't be afraid to take a chance!! Just know your limits, and don't be afraid to sever ties with a guy if your not being treated how you deserve to be!! Trust me , if he loves you he will change |
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| Posted 4 months ago Well i'll tell you guys my story.
ok well back in march of 08 i met this guy and i absolutely adored him.. even though we were only together for a week. He broke up with me for his ex and every month for 6 he would call me up (while he was still with his ex) and tell me that he missed me and that he wanted to be with me. and i was still crazy about him and i only dated him for a week and i didn't know what was wrong with me. but i guess i thought that since i fell so fast it was meant to be or something well anyways after 6 months his girlfriend broke up with him and i was there for him and tried to help him out and i know now that wasn't a good thing because back then i still had feelings for him. Well a week later he was wanting us to be more than just friends but he didn't want to be in a relationship as he said because he just got over one and he didn't think he was ready. well anyways we started talking every night and we were friends but we had benefits. but he started telling ppl he was leading me on and one of the ppl he told was one of my best friends which was one of his too. and then she told me and everything. finally after that happened i was ready to move on because he played with my heart so many times. and finally i met this other guy[i will refer to the ex/jerk as guy1 and the other guy2] well anyways me and guy 2 ended up dating and for a while guy 1 was outta my head. and i was so happy with guy2. well almost after 2 months of being with guy2 i went to a rodeo and this guy [guy 3]kept on flirting with me and not many guys had liked me so i didn't know what to do when it came to that kinda stuff well dumb me broke up with guy 2. and it almost killed me to do it.. but i did it. then after that i was with guy 3 and during that time i missed guy 2 and me and guy 2 were getting close again and so i ended it with guy 3 cause i couldn't handle not being with guy 2 well anyways it was a year after i met guy 1and it coming to the day when i first met him and i couldn't think about anything but him and i tried to keep my thoughts secret to guy 2 because i did want to be with him. but i did tell my bestie and so guy2 called her up and asked her wat was wrong with me because i wouldn't tell him.. and she told him and then he wanted me to be completely honest about how i felt about him and it was horrible because i loved guy 2 but i wasn't over guy 1 and so the next day i thought it was best if we took a break becauseof everything. and then while i was trying to get over guy1 i was pushing away from guy2 and so the same thing that happened the last time i broke up with him. and now its two three months later and hes on my mind and i want him back but i know that he wouldn't want to be with me after all i've done to him. and so yeah its very sad to me. |
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| Posted 3 months ago My ex lied so many times to me... At one point, when me and my friends were at the mall...he followed me there, tho I told him not to... Over there, his friend gave mine the finger...he made fun of some friends of mine at karaoke.... I confronted him, and he lied...'no, if zeeshan wouldve given your friends the finger, I wouldve screwed him'....'no, theyre your friends, I have no right to laugh at them..." Fucking hell man, you know that I know youre lying, yet you still hope I'll buy your story? And I still wonder why i went along with him for so long until finally breaking up... |
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| Posted 3 months ago . . .Jesus Christ. I thought the title was horrid, but this. . .my eyes are bleeding now. |
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| Posted 3 months ago my recent ex which was like over 2 years ago now lolz.. used to compare me to every other female and it was annoying and make comments about girls constantly like how hot they were and this and that.. I got really annoyed with him after awhile
rock on,
vampire doll Jenni "My music the only thing that slightly takes away the ache" |
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| Posted 3 months ago Well...These stories are really interesting...lol Mine is different, kind of. One of my exes (not using names)...We dated for about a year. 9 months, I think. And we were really, REALLY close friends for a few years before that... Well, we had been dating for a few months and we were doing ok. I didn't think anything bad was going to happen. I lost my virginity to him and all that good "First time" crap.... After that, I was really pissed off and didn't date anyone for a long time. But now my current boyfriend and I have been together for about a year and a half. We live together and all is well. Good guys do exist! And they're not all gay. LOL! You just have to weed them out. |
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| Posted 3 months ago wow jelena that really is horrible about your friend.. just showed you early on that she wasn't truly a friend cuz a friend never crosses that line.. well this other guy I dated in the end of 2006 which was a month and a half was nutso and on pills and still seeing his current gf now they were just on a break .. but here is what happened. he took a break with her and he new me and the guy at the time that i was engaged to just broke up with me like 6 months beforehand and his friend wanted to get back with my best friend cuz they dated for awhile and that is how i met this guy. so his friend talked him into dating me plus my friends ex hated the girl that the guy was dating so he pushed the issue..
He told me he would never date her again she was crazy and slapped him in his dorm and etc and you know going on about how horrible she was well wouldn't you know after a month and a half of dating he plays these headgames with me while we date and then after we break up he goes right back to that girl and he is still with her.. it was one messed up thing though while we dated.. there was so much more craziness that would take too long to write here but he was a loser for definate
rock on,
vampire doll Jenni "My music the only thing that slightly takes away the ache" |
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| Posted 3 months ago okay so ... i was with the guy for about 6 month then one weekend i goes away on holiday with my BEST FRIEND! on the way home i got a text off him saying tht he had cheated on my with her! but.. not only her quite a few of my so called firends! i eneded it straight away but he kept telling me that he was still in love with me, when i told him it was over for good he got with my best friend. all the time that he is with her he texts me asking me back and telling me tht he still loves me! ... wahts all that about?!? i have told him sooo many times to leave me alone and she doesnt believe that hes doing it! it soo annoying.
then the next guy i got with after him, i was with for about a month before i found out thathe had another girlfriend who he had been with for a year!!! he then turns up at my house crying asking me to lie and say that i had made eerything up and that me and him had never been together! i swear to god, men these days are so untrustworthy! ... girls i think were better off alone!!! |
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| Posted 3 months ago i believe everyone had a crush,then the relationship blooms and then we broke up..well,this is the cycle of everyone's love life. and noone said they love it. even i hate to break up myself. anyway,so this is my story. Frankly speaking,i do believe in fate myself. last two years,i bumped into this guy near a shopping mall. at that moment,i don't recognise him. i just thought to myself that he is quite cute. after a while,i found out that he is in the same school as me. and i thought that there is no way im gonna get a guy like him. he is soo out of my league. a year later,his friends happens to be my friend's friends. it was quite ammusing. since then,we started to hang out together after school. it was my best year actually. a few weeks later,he asked for my contact number although he didn't made it too obvious that he wanted to date me. so i gave him and start to take our relationship slow and steady. we contact each other for a few months actually. when i found out that he is also contacting spme other girl through myspace,i try not to put my hopes up high on him. when his major examinations are around the corner,i tried not to contact him too much as i want him to concentrate on his studies so he could have a better futur when he graduated. but he got the wrong idea and thoght im not interested in him and so he moved on to the girl he knows from myspace. thus,it took me almost a yr to get ovr him.well,life is hard. nevertheless,i would like to thank him for all those beautiful memories we had which will never be erased. |
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| Posted 3 months ago Jalena4 says ...
You just have to weed them out. The cute ones are all GAY. And its sad to lose your virginity over crap...to be honest, I wont lose my virginity until Im sure the guy wont run away if Im pregnant, and until Im sure he aint crap... |
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| Posted 3 months ago One thing I really know that I hate is when my boyfriend makes up excuses for things that he and his family does wrong. He always as an explanation as to why he or any memebers of family do something wrong. He won't accept the fact that they deliberately do things to hurt people and there is no room for excuses. Because he makes excuses for them, he doesn't see his fault or theirs, so it is something that will continue to take place regardless. Another thing I hate about my boyfriend is when i am angry and i am yelling, he won't say a word, he is super calm and looks at me like i am crazy! That annoys me so much and it makes me more upset! i can't stand that! |
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| Posted 3 months ago okay i had this boyfriend for almost 3 yrs. i knew that he was bad news when he said that i'd get burn in the end and of course i did. i fell for him hard anythng he did i almost right away forgave him. i tried to kill myself over this man. i was 18 and he was 31 when we first started talking. i looked up to him. honestly he was my first real boyfriend so i was excited. we've broke up 3 times this last time was the last. inour whole realtioship he had 2 jobs. my momma took care of us( i know pretty shitty of me huh)but i had got my old job and he made me quit cause he said that i was cheating on him. the first one was when he would stay in the bathroom for an hour or 2 at a time and he'd lock the door. knew then that he was doing something that he wasn't supposed to be doing. he got really abusive towards me, he didn't have a sex drive anymore, stayed gone with his druggie friend for 10 hours while i sat at home with nothing to eat but the hambuger that i had got him eailer that day, and he never slept . i should have seen the signs cause before we when we was just friends we was doing some drugs together. so i left him went to my mommas. i went to pick up some of my stuff and car ( he took the keys to work with him so i couldnt leave) his first job while we was together. when i came there he asked me to stay and he told me that he'd been on drugs. i forgave him because i knew how hard it is to give up a drug that you really like. everything started getting better. he'd collect metal to get up money. then the fighting started me bitching mostly cause i was sick of not having anything. so that one was on me. well we started helping his friends deliever news papers one night they came and he didnt want to go and i didnt if he didnt want to. but he made me. so will we was out doing that he called to see if i was being good. then all of a sudden he starts acting like an ass cause he dont trust me or his friends. well that night was our second break up. i took it considerably well. yeah i still loved him but i knew we was better off without each other. i moved in with my best friend and her family. and me and him got back in contact and started talking again so i moved back in with him. he told me that he didnt care what i done at my friends house but i told him the honest to god truth i wasn't a nun or anything but i hadnt slept with anyone. he accepted that until i got my current job there was this dude in my department that he swore that i liked. i despised the dude from work and told him so. he would take me to work so that he could check up on me when ever. if he saw me talking to that dude at work at all i got my ass chewed off. one time he took it so far that he started asking about what had happened at my best friends i told hm the truth and still he thought that i had slept wth someone so i told him that i had slept with my ex boyfriend. and that i had fooled around with this one guy. so he hit me ( i wont say beat because he did hit me but he hadnt ever left bruises before except once when he'd been on drugs i forgave him for that) i had to sit there and take all of the physical and emotional abuse. night after night. he saw me talkin to the dude from work and he jumpped my shit as soon as i got into the car. he asked what we had been talkig about and i told him that i over heard what the dude from work and a girl from work was talking about and told him i put my 2 cents into it. that night i did get my ass beat he gave me two black eyes and broke my glasses. every paycheck he took my paycheck and he used it to get his mommas stuff out of pawn. i never had anything hell one time when i didnt have tampons i had to use toilet paper. not long after he'd beat my ass we was kick out of his moms because she was sick of her stuff being pawned and he was back on drugs. so we moved in with my momma and uncle and cousin well he pawned my uncles fshing poles and my uncle found out about it. so we gave him a chance and let him stay. then he took my cousins games and pawned them. we found out he'd pawned the same day my uncle died. and i know that the games was there after we'd given him the chance about the fishing poles. we broke up that night. and he told me something that broke my heart even more. he said that he was back on drugs crack cocaine this time and that he was dying. i dont know weather to believe him about the dying thing or not. i was never anything to him but a whore and a beat up bag. he was everything to me, i quit talkng to my family and friends for him. i stole from his momma and mine too. but before we got to gether the worst thing i was doing was drugs. im not saying he ruined my life because he didn't . i helpped out too. i'm not blaming it all on him either because i could have said no and took it like a real woman but i was sick of being hurt all i wanted was his love and accpetance. and when he did give me love it was magical. i just wish that this didnt hurt so bad. i love him with all my heart. my first true love.
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